Thinking.....

OK, This will be a long long post....


Have been thinking since i went to work just now. What is the things that i want for my future. It has been 2 weeks since i ORD. And i have yet to conclude the answer for myself.

I've made up my mind, and I am going to focus on my work for the coming year. No more Party like before, no more drinking like before. There are more things in life that i should concern about. I'm not one that are really feeding on golden spoon since young. Alot of things happen in my 20years of life. Friends that i have know since young, still thinking that i'm still leading the life i used to have. And i've to say it straight to the point right now, that "I am Not". People call me Shao Ye, and also call me things like "Lao ban de Er Zhi", all this complimanting words to me, sound more like insulting. So sorry guys, Please stop using this words on me. I think i'm just leading a little more better life then you guys, and infact we are equal.

Frankly speaking, i still cant put down the "rich" status that i use to have. But as i grow older(especially after my NS), i tends to let go of it slowly. And to those that feels only if mixing with the rich, make you more comfortable, please exclude me in it. Because i am not rich. I've stop taking money from my parents and i got to work to support myself and to enjoy my life. And i keep on asking, Why is it that i always think for others before myself?? People use to say, if you wan others to treat u better, first you got to treat them double. I am doing what the old says. But in return, i feels that i am not getting any of it in return.

Dad is disappointed with me and my bro, as he did so much to us, and we did not do anything in return. Talk to him in the car earlier on. And i make a promise to him, next year i will do my best to bring the business up. I wan him to drive back the S-Class that he used to have. I wan him to enjoy the rest of his life doing things he love to do. I've tell myself, i cannot be lazy anymore. There are people mocking at my back, laughing at me. I must prove to them that i will not Fall!
Thanks to Jun Kai, my childhood friend. He comes to talk to me in FB, and to share with me things that he face in the past. And ask me not to be depress.

I must thanks alot to my dad for getting the new car -Toyota Estima- A great car i must say. Although it's not the car that i want, but it's still the best. At Es BBQ earlier, someone said something nasty to me(i forget whose that person is). He/She ask me why is it that i don't wish to park my car at the loading bay. Is it that parking beside a BMW-3series makes you feels very pai seh because yours is just a toyota?? And my reply for now is just the same as what i reply to him/her earlier. And it's a straight "NO" i don feel pai seh at all and why should i?? So what if its a 3series, i believe that if i work hard next year, i can easily buy a 5series instead. i dont have to ask my dad to buy for me. And thanks to that person who said this to me. You have motivate me to work even more harder!

Hmmm. I should not think of that special one anymore, this will only slow myself down from climbing up. And i will just back out slowly day by day. And I believe that the person you have been mixing with recently, is capable of giving what i used to gave you. But the love i put in, i believe is more then anyone can give. Since i don get appreciated for what i've being doing, i should start to draw the line slowly. To make it clear that we will go in a seperate ways. But you are always the special one to me. :)

I got alot of things to say, but don know why, i got stumbled on my words when i start typing. I think thats all for today. And tomorrow will be a BETTER DAY! :D


GOOD DAY EVERYONE!!



ps: This post is not refering to anyone, so please don come and ask me, who is the one i am saying. :)

Merry Christmas!!

Merry Christmas to all my friends.. today is 25th of Dec. And my wish for Christmas is to have a better days coming ahead.. Forget all the bad things that are left behind then. Celebrate Christmas at Novotel. Enjoyed ourself and i received my present. A perfume that i wanted to buy. :D Thanks my Dear. Haha. Happy to receive it.


Anyway, it has already pass 12am. And now it's our Dear Boy, Ng Eng Seng Birthday.. Happy Birthday Brother. Don't drink so much although you seems Emo recently.


Ok, that it for my slight update. Take Care all my friends.

ORD LOH!!

What can i say? Happiest Moment of my Life.. Haas..

Happy ORD to Myself and whole of Platoon 1. :D

Happy Birthday to my 2 brothers. :D

Happy Birthday Jeffery which falls on the 13 of nov, and Ah Da which is Tuesday.. :D Happy Birthday to the both of u arz..

AH MEI MEI..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIN MEI. :D Gan Dong right. I still manage to meet you up on your Birthday leh. Haha. Sweet 20th Birthday arz.

IPOD~!

WOOTS~! Hello Friends.. Sorry, too long never update my blog. Anyway, i'm soooo happy. Finally got my IPOD fixed. When i actually have to pay $170 to repair my Ipod which i have drop in the washing machine few months back. This Ipod some how do mean something to me arz. Because i bought it with her, and got it into coma because of her as well. But, it doesn't matter anymore. :)


Going ORD soon.. Clearing Off and Leave, do ask me out, i'm very free! LOL. Daddy is planning to pass the Semb shop to me. All i have to do is to take over the shop. But i have to start from scratch again. Unlike my bro. Haiz.


Anyway, i'm rather feeling down recently. Especially i feel that i've been replace by someone else. When he have almost everything, but he just want to take away what i have. Sigh...


Take care my friends, i'm lazy to carry on.

THE WINNER

If you think you are a Beaten. You Are!

If you think you Dare Not. You Don't!

If you would like to win, but you think u can't.

It's almost certain you Won't!

If you think you'll loose, you have Lost.

For out in the world you'll find success begins with a fellow's will.

It's all in his state of Mind.

If you think you are Outclassed, You Are!

You've got to think high to Rise.

You've got to be sure of yourself before you ever can earn a Prize!

Life's battle don't always go for the Stronger or Faster man.

For Sooner or Later, the man who wins is the one who think he CAN!!

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Anyway this article is a poster that are stick inside my camp office. Always motivate me when i'm feeling very down. Hmmm. And Everyone should read this when you feels that you are at the lowest point of your life. Read and you will get motivated. :)

Oh ya, tomorrow is Saturday le. Russia and my cousin is having their first book out. Most probably i will be fetching them. :D

Take care my frens. will update real soon..

Moodless...

Sorry guys. No mood to post anythings here. Really damn moody. Haiz. Anw, plan to go overseas. But no one is free to go with me. Russia plan to go m'sia on the 5th of sept. Anyone wants to go, do call me arz. Then i'll tell u whats are the planning are. :)

Think my trip to Hong Kong, Bali, and Thailand maybe cancelled. Because no one is going with me. :( Haiz..

Take Care all my frens..



真的真的对不起。 :(

Finally...

Finally. Help out for NDP'09 has mark a full stop for us on the 9th of August. Was rather a tiring experience and also to let us learn new things. Getting lots of scolding from the audience as well, when they were too demanding for the colors of the bags. Audience only think for themselves, but they did not think for us. With everyone asking for different colors, we had a hard time dealing with the remaining peoples. Maybe is that i still don know how to manage things well. Sometimes it's really very tiring to please everyone. Especially the one that are always around us. Somehow, i really feel that i'm a real asshole, real failure. I always made wrong move at the wrong time, which turn things out really hard for me to handle. Can i go back to the past? to change the history? I really hope that i could, so that i can change wad had happen to somethings that could please everyone. Sorry to the one whom i've hurt.

Come to think of this, am i someone that everyone cannot trust? I can be one. Just that i'm not good in my words, which turn out that people thinks that i'm not reliable to share anything with. I am a failure in friendship, which in return, i got no close frens. Can everyone give me a chance? Just one more, to guide me and to change me. I really hope there is this chance. Sometimes i shared things with frens around us, doesn't mean that i'm telling others to belief the another side of you. Infact i juz need them to help us to cool things down. I really tell myself that i will share things with you only. I always got difficulities to share my love lifes with you, that is why i never tell you. And it doesn't mean that i don trust you. Just hope that you are willing to give the both of us a chance to really sit down and talk.

Haiz, hope to go back to the past.


Anyway, went to watch Up with yuh li after ndp celebration on sunday. That show was ok la, not that nice. Just funny lo, and not to the extend that can really made me laugh upside down or maybe is that i just don have the mood to laugh anymore. Haiz .For the sake of li, when she ask if i can acc her to watch, because she's watching with wilson only, so rush down to watch with her. Haas. Plans after movie was to meet up with cliques and go my house for some board games and mahjong session. But all were to lazy to leave the house, or to watch soccer. So ended up, me and li went home instead.

Yesterday, i'm way tooo tired that i woke up at 2pm. Online and chat with li and An. Ask them to go out, because i am really very bored at home. Plan for damn long and An thought of going for some prawning session. Called mummy and ask if she can lend me her car. She come and fetch me after her appt. Drive her home, and i went to meet up with An. Li cannot make it last min cause of her school work. So called Russia and Xiang long to go prawning. Had some bad experience with the char kueh teow stalls at our sec school there. LOL. Went prawning after that. I got night blindness, which ended up finding the prawning place at bishan for about 30mins. Sorry guys. Session with them were fun. And thanks to Wong Jian An! Caught his first Prawn the first time, and he actually hang the prawn all the way to my chair with me still sitting on it. And that prawn actually pinch my backside la~! lol. quite a hilarious scene i must say. Haha. Caught alot of prawn yesterdae, good catch arz guys. BBQ and rush home to return mummy car at 4am. Levin offered to drive me home after that. Thanks cousin! But we slack at west coast mac followed by mount faber, and devils bend. And i'm also very nice lo. Accompany him, cause he also need to return his mum's car at 7. So we went alot of places from 4-6.40am. Reach home at 7am, too shag, fall asleep soon. And now i'm here blogging. too bored as well. :(

Bad news for today is to Book in tonight at 2300. Sad la. But Good news to me is i'm officially 4 more months to ORD~~!!!! Swee. I can smell my pink I/C le. Haha. that's all for my weekend den. Take care my frens.

Please Give Me A Second Chance... :(

Happy Birthday to Jeslyn and Renee Jie Jie.,

hoo hooo.. Happy birthday to my best fren lynn.. sweet 20th Birthday arz.. :D

and and.. to Renee.. Happy Birthday sister. Didnt make it to Dbl O today. if not i will sure celebrate for you. haha.. Sorry Sis..

Good night guys. going to slp now. :)



Don't be sooo cold towards me.. :(

Happy 19th Birthday..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEN HUI!!
Sweet 19th Birthday. Hope that u will be happy always, and stay cute.
Dinner with you soon. :D

Never lie to the one u cherish...

I've learn a Good lesson. Never ever lie to the one you love and cherish most, because u will be the one suffering the most. All i can say is, i'm sorry. I never want to lie, just want to hide it. =/ Not to worry, i will gain back the trust u had in me once before.

Anw, let me post something that happen in this whole week den?? :) Let me recall what had happen, and let's start with Sunday than.

Sunday, 19th July 2009
Posted on facebook that i'm looking for someone to accompany me to repair my Ipod nano. Mins later, Chris msg me. He said that he is way too bored at home. LOL. And say that he will accompany me to repair my Ipod. An already promise to go with me. So went to fetch Chris followed by An to cine to repair my Ipod. Reach and saw the Apple shop at cine close-down. Head to wheelock instead. On the way, we went to taka to shop around, when me and chris suddenly felt damn hungry, and we went to the food fair to looks for some finger food. Ended up, we bought ice cream instead. All the ice cream had alcohol in it, and we did not check the price, ended up paying $6 for a small cup of ice cream. =.= Thanks to Christopher Wong, because he said the ice cream girl is pretty, so we went to buy from them after trying lots of sample from them. An dirty his hand when eating my ice cream, worst is he went to GUCCI shop and whip off those ice cream on a $400 scurf. I really donno wad the 2 nonsense trying to do that whole day. When we walking along the new shopping centre "ION", Chris do stunt again, he Shouted "WAH!! FOUNTAIN LEH". Me and An really laugh till peng. Lots of stranger turn their head to looks at the small water fountain outside ION. Really pai seh i must say. Reach Wheelock Apple, Service centre were close on sunday. wasted our time going down. Haiz. Called Li, as she promised to go with me on Mon den. :D Soon fetch the 2 Nonsense home and i headed home. I bet they are good fren now. Lol.


Monday, 20th July 2009
Off today, so no need to go back camp. Fetch Li at her school, as she ends her lesson at 12.30. Chris called and mention that he's bored. He wants to tag along too, so went to fetch him after Li. Reach Wheelock open space carpark, and it's very full. Waited like 20mins before we can find a parking lot. Hmmm. Reach Apple service centre, and the queue is very long, ended up waiting like more den half an hour lo. But when my turn, the staff actually scan my Ipod very throughly and she saw the water indicator in my Ipod had change color, which is also means that they found out that Ipod actually drop inside the water before. And i cant repair my Ipod. The lady actually wants me to pay $170 to replace a new Ipod instead. WTH lo. I juz bought my nano for 1mnth plus at $245. now have to pay $170 again. Why don i juz buy Ipod Touch in the first place. at least i can feel it in my pants, cause it's bulky. Haiz. Anw, it's still my fault. I got to apologise to the lady who attend to me, cause i curse and swear when i noe that i cant fixed my nano with the warranty. Haiz. Bad temper i had. :( Went to had Chicken Rice with li at Far East. Donno isit my taste bud got prob or wad. Don find that Chicken rice nice lo. And it's damn ex.. Only our dear yuh li like the chicken rice. she even finish all the cucumber from all the plate. =.= Chris and i was shock to see how she finish all the food.. LOL. Send Li home as she got work at 6, and went to Changi Airport to fetch my cousin after that. She bought me a latest Limited ed Vodka-Level Vodka. All i can say about that Vodka is "Damn Cool uh". Had dinner with uncle and cousins after that, and i shall book in after that.

Tuesday, 21st July 2009
Nothing much happen on this day. All i can remeber is that i keep sleeping in bunk. Lol. Oh ya, today is the first time that the all HQ personnel never turn up for Breakfast except muhsin. Haha. all were sleeping like dead log lo. No one actually woke up eh. :D Oh, i went for a night run with glenn and mushin. Went back bunk, talk things out with J. Has been bothering me for 1 week plus. Finally she talks to me, but we're not in good terms anymore. haiz. :( Whole night am thinking of what had happen, and i regret doing so. Again, i'm really sorry.

Wednesday, 22nd July 2009
Woke up at 5.45am for Breakfast. Going to Pri school again to give out Funpack. Went to school around woodland and yishun. Was Raining heavily that day. Most of us were drenched at the first few school. Because of the bad designed shelter, which was too low for the container. Finish giving all the Funpack by 11am. We're quite fast though, total there is 5 school that day. Went back camp, and all of us were very tired. Went to slp all the way till dinner and went for my Nights off. Meet up with ting that night. Supposingly i should be having a talk with her that night. But Chris wants to meet up, so i didnt get to talk to ting. Shall meet u again, maybe next wed den. :D Went to Jurong West Safra for KBOX again. Sing Sang Sung till 10.30 and i got to rush back to camp.

Thursday, 23rd July 2009
Whole Day busy unpacking all the Funpack. Got no idea why are we actually doing so. my whole company unpack a total of 4containers, which is about 6000 funpack. Morning, was quite relax, cause there were too many ppl helping out. which we slack out alot. In the afternoon, Sgt Jhin Hong wants me to help him. So JunXiong and i were like so busy Taking out all the bags from the box. All the box were really heavy, we unpack about 1container+++ which is close to 2 container of box. Reach 2pm the sun were damn hot. Most of us got bad sunburn that day. At least our hardwork were paid off. We were given Night's Off once again. Met chris for dinner and we chat at Starbucks. Too sian, think is because i went for too much Night's off. LOL. Very Tired, and i went back camp quite early at about 9 plus. Help Randy and my last time Bravo mate to buy dinner, as they cant go for nights out.

Friday, 24th July 2009
Woke up for Breakfast at 5.40am. Was Raining very heavily, Muhsin scold me that i very hard to wake up. which is so different from me la. I wake up easily one lo. Even a soft noise can wake me up. But after shifting to the HQ bunk, i tends to slp like a dead log lo. Haha, oh ya, muhsin scold me that, because he said 4am there is lots of lighting and thunder, but i juz nvr get woke up. Lol. After breakfast, i'm suppose to help sgt jun wei to do some admin stuff. But he ask me to come down at 10am, so i went back to slp again. Really no idea why am i sooooo tired. Ended up, i slept all the way till lunch again. Haas. So help sgt jun wei after my lunch. Finish the job quite fast though, and prepare to book out after that. CSM is in good mood, allow us to go home at 4pm. very early lo. Went to buy lunch for Daddy before i go home. And plan for the activities going on later. Ended up, i'm here posting my blog. I should be drinkiing at DBL O this timing lo. Haiz. Too bad, everythings were not organise, so all of us stay at home instead. :(

That's the end of this few day post. :D

Almost forgot to add.. LAU RONG HONG, my cousin, is a damn Great Cousin who is willing to shares all my problems i had since young. I bet lots of people envy me having him as my cousin.
ps. Hong, like that enough not?? Lol..


i thought things could work out for us,
but somehow it doesn't seems to be.
and the problem lies with me,
which i guess that i just can't deceived my own feelings.

Tiring week..

Just woke up. had a tiring week though. hmmm.. shall start my post since thurs den..

Thurs - 160709
woke up very early, think 5.30am. went for breakfast and prepare to go primary school to give out the NDP fun pack. quite fun though. first time following them to give out the fun pack. went to schools around west side. First was "Boon Lay Garden pri, den corporation pri, lakeside pri, pei hwa prysbeterian, and jurong west pri". saw my pri 4 chinese teacher mdm luk now teaching at lakeside pri. we were busy looking at the family tree outside the staff room. wher we are able to see which teacher teaching in the school. haas. pei hwa is the most cool. their canteen got alot of nice food! including japanese cuisine. damn cool. really school for the rich kids. haha. somemore that freaking school is 7 storey high. that's why they build elevator for it. -__-" got nights out after the tiring day. :D meet jessmin, da boi and ah boi for dinner. get to noe new frens again. Pui Leng.. damn joker.. make me laugh until my face cramp during dinner. haha.. went to buy dinner for xiong and mz be4 i rush back to camp at 2300..

Fri - 170709
Tio duty again.. got to do office orderly again. it's something like Cos. but more sai kang to do. haiz. but CSM is nice. ask me to do till book out time. cause i got to attend Toon ling jie jie wakes. was slping most of the time in office. too tired, cause i slept late the day before. book out at 5pm. took bus with ming hui and samuel. my 2 new coy mate. was kind of surprise to found out that ming hui were actually my pri school mate lo. that's why i find him so familiar. and after a long chat home, we actually noe each other damn long le. hahaha. he shall be my close buddy i guess. haas. Reach home, shower and prepare to go to jie jie Wakes. reach there at 7.30pm. saw uncle william(jie jie dad) sitting over there. went to chat with him with daddy. he was telling us that jie jie got fever for 4 daes and she pass away. haiz. her 3 children were down with dengue too, luckily there got recovered. :) during the prayer, i got serious goose bump. all the sadness from the family members. even saw uncle william break down. crying damn badly suddenly. haiz. half way through the prayers, i left with daddy quietly. as he sae, we're not suppose to tell them we are leaving. that's wad the adult told me though. :'( Reach home, fall asleep when my com is still on. from 10pm i sleep all the way till sat morning 10am. LOL~! Power 12hrs slp. haha.

Sat - 180709
Woke up at 10am. I'M LATE~!! need to rush down to kallang by 11am. called bro, but he's still busy with work. supposingly i'm driving to kallang de. but time don meet. i need to rush to kallang at 11. but bro sae 1130 den he can make it. ended up dad fetch me there. was late, cause i went to tanjong rhu to buy char siew bao. samuel called and sae that they got no breakfast. so i went to buy. i reach kallang at 1130. sgt darel give me that black face. and mention that those who late need to give $5. i should have reach there later right. -__-" but don bother him. but after i reach, i saw mushin taking a big box of KFC.. wth.. sae no breakfast, den i saw them taking KFC out. nb. anw, start work at 3pm. and really tiring. running around the kallang stadium carpark giving out the paper to bus driver. total, there are more den 200buses lo. really tiring. carpark is sooo big. bet i lose quite a few kg den. hahaha. all the way we help out till 11pm. in between the marshalling, 3 police officer come and talk to me. 2 of them are high rank. O.o both of them got star on their shoulder. ask me who is the in-charge. saw their rank i already kena shock liao. i faster pull sgt janson over. LOL. he also blur.. but things was under control after LT ng come. :) when to meet jian ping for a drink after my duty at kallang. drink till 3 and we went home. i was kind of drunk though, but i still put my clothes inside the washing machine to wash. but i forgot to take out my new Ipod nano. haiz. now tt it's drown, gonna help my nano do some cpr. lol.

Sun - 190709
dad wakes me up at 12 to eat. brough back lot's of food.. after eating, and i'm here updating my blog. :) chat with yuh ting with alot of things. although she cant help me solve my prob. but at least hear me say wad i wanted to say. thanks ting. :) will be meeting this wed for dinner den. Gonna meet jian an and chris(maybe) to wheelock to repair my ipod. haiz. take care guys. :D


if i tell u things from my heart, will you ignore me??
can u hint me to tell me if i should confess to you??
so u will not ignore me again...

Rest in Peace : Toon Ling Jie Jie..

I am very shock, juz receive a call from my mei mei mins ago. This sister of mine, who have watch me grow up, have juz pass away due to dengue fever. sob. and it was like so sudden~!!! she is very young and she juz got her 3rd baby. and finally she got a daughter and now she have to leave her. why must everything happen so fast. i juz saw her at jurong point last month. and now i receive the call. it's really hard to take it. i swear.

Jie jie. don worry about anythings here. Rest Peacefully. You will always live in our heart.. ='(
God Bless You..


Never live with regrets..

Half day leave...

I'm home now, took half day leave to settle some personall stuff and blogging now as i really got nothing to do at home. not in the mood for anything as well. haiz. shall start with the nonsense happen since sunday den.

Sunday book in to camp. rather sian. because i'm back to my 2nd home again. -__-" new Sgt was rather xia lan when he talks to me. cause i mia for 6mnths. but will build up a good friendship with them i hope. went back to my bunk. was shock that i don have a bed to slp. Randy shifted to my bunk, and he's slping on my bed. called him immediately, he apologised that he will shift to another bed instead. wont blame him la, is i disappear for too long le. next things that shock me is that my LBV, helmet and sandal is lost as well. someone steal my things. haiz. but gonna hunt that fellow down. other den that, everything is still the same. Bryan book in after me, at least someone to talk to me and to update me of the things happening in camp when i'm not around.

Monday, 130709. was told by sgt Jing Hong that i got a duty to do. wtf lo. first dae book in tio duty. but it was rather a relax one, because the whole batallion is on leave. No one in camp = No Government. wahaha. slp and chat with sgt shan hong whole dae in the office. he is rather nice to me when i get back to camp after 6mnths. LOL. during lunch, i was still furious with the new spec sgt J.H. which i keep forgetting his name till todae, i was calling him Sgt "Chee Hong" the whole of yesterday. he really got those chee hong face though. haha. and Sgt S.H laugh non-stop. -_-" how to ask me to rmb so many ppl name in one dae. Chuii and Biao Mei crap with me the whole night in msn. the both of them really nothing better to do den come talk crap with me. LOL. but at least they keep me accompanied. thanks chuii and biao mei. haha. if not i sure bored to death. Anw, wad i do the whole dae in camp yesterdae is Slp-Eat-Dvd-Msn... lol. other den that nothing to do.

Today, rather short. wake up at 5.25am for breakfast. den go back office slack till 9. was waiting for CSM to come. but he drag till 11am. so i went back to bunk and slp from 9am till 11am. book out at 12 to do my licence thingy at ubi. haiz. don wan to mention anything about that den. =/

and i'm home now to post my crap for the past 2days. :)
Haiz.. booking in later.. sian..



i hope i will not let you go..
and hope that u will not wan me to let u go..

Returning back to camp...

Feeling real down now. in another 1hr, i wil be booking in. after 6mnths. really don feel like going back. anw, i still have to book in. think on the brighter side, 5more mnths to my ord. :D

okok. slight update for the pass few days. Fri night suppose to go supper with jie, ah boi and da boy. ended up we went to fetch jie ying and da bao mac to K Box. we're making full use of the promotion by k box. which will be end at the ends of this month. have been visiting k box 3time this week. argh.

Sat. went to ngee ann poly to help crystal to do a group interview. fetch von first because her work ends at 1. i was late, because i nvr manage my time properly. ended up we're all late for the interview. Sry again to crystal. After interview, send all of them to Jp as i need to go home to change for our later activity at night. Met clique for dinner and head down to vivo for shopping. was feeling hungry the whole night. LOL. after dinner, i went to buy ya kun kaya toast to eat. at vivo, me and chuii went to had our long john silver again. smth wrong with me. haas. Power house till 5am. and headed home. woke up in the morning and i got a serious hang over. but after breakfast, i'm fine. :)

think that's all for my weekends. recently there's alots of bad things happening to me. hope that everything will be fine. good luck to me.



Although i'm half drunk last night, all i think of is u..
and thought that i will have the courage to tell u, but i don.

End of my Holiday..

woke up quite early todae.. but slept quite late last night.. was chatting with my buddy-shao chong, back in BMT.. now he's having a good life as a driver. haha.

went to fetch jie for her singing lesson at chinatown. she's learning from Anthong Png aka Fang Zhong Hua. quite a nice teacher. Teach me after jessmin. learn alot from him too. :) after that, i go for my medical appt. Quite sad. Doc was firm with his stand. No More MC for me. ask me go back to camp. which mean i'm going back camp on sun night 2230. haiz. ok la. 5 more mnths to ORD. still not tt bad. haha.

went to watch "Ghost Of Girlfriend Past" after appt. rate 3.5 for that movie. and i do imagine myself as the main character. but i'm not a PLAYER for sure. only feels that i should build up my courage to confess to people i like. and not cheat on feeling. also feel that i should say sorry to those that i've said some nasty or things that are unpleasant to. really sorry..

oh ya.. got Cheated again. -___-" was told that we are going to have dinner with Ah boy nearby. ended up fetching Da Boy, Hei Zhu, and Andrea to changi airport T3 for Duck noodle. Wth lo. not that jurong don have sia. nb. LOL. but not that bad la. and we got a lecture from a worry mother (shall not mention whose mummy) who is worry of her child. went back home after that.

anw, i shall make full use of this few days. :D
Good Night Friends..


when will i have the courage to confess??

Feeling i had towards you..

Sorry - 苏永康

Sorry... I am really sorry.

我又一次把你气哭在陌生街头

爱你... 我当然爱你

自从第一眼到现在什至没人敢预测的将来

请你相信不是我不愿意改变我自已

而是一再努力又一再放弃那个软弱的自已

其实我恨透了我自已没有认输的勇气

让你受尽了不安和委屈

你是我这一生这一生最最最害怕去伤害到的人

也是我这一生这一生唯一能让我安定下来的人

虽然我并没有并没有并没有一身温纯的灵魂

但是我很愿意很愿意做那个永远照顾你的人

我的爱人请听我有颗不善言语的心

只能够看着你远处的背影

请你相信不是我不愿意改变我自已

而是一再努力又一再放弃那个软弱的自已

其实我恨透了我自已没有认输的勇气

让你受尽了不安和委屈

你是我这一生这一生最最最害怕去伤害到的人

也是我这一生这一生唯一能让我安定下来的人

虽然我并没有并没有并没有一身温纯的灵魂

但是我很愿意很愿意做那个永远照顾你的人

我的爱人请听我有颗不善言语的心

只能够看着你远处的背影

你是我这一生这一生最最最害怕去伤害到的人

也是我这一生这一生唯一能让我安定下来的人

虽然我并没有并没有并没有一身温纯的灵魂

但是我很愿意很愿意做那个永远照顾你的人

我的爱人请听我有颗不善言语的心

只能够看着你远处的背影

Present everything that i feel in this songs...

I'm Sorry...

First Post...

Hello Folks, This is my first time blogging. Thanks to my cutest Mei Mei, for helping me to create this blog. so i can share my thoughts with u guys, whether is it things that i'm happy or sad. Anyway, it's the first post from me. so i doubt i will know wad to type in here. pardon me for my poor english. oh ya. will be updating the photos that i had with yuhli, and von on last sat NDP rehearsal.



Please give me some time to understand the whole function for Blogging. I'm still New to it, but i promise that i will learn it fast. haha.







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